I Have No Memory

Whew! The first week of Joyryde Records was great! I can’t believe (I am pinching myself as I type this) that I am this happy. I actually get up in the morning and am ANXIOUS to get to work! I don’t even call it work, but it is an amazing feeling. Obviously this isn’t the first business I have owned, but it IS the first that I feel has an amazingly positive affect on not only my life, but the lives of everyone who is touched by the music. I am actually interested in what I do every day, and feel so great about being able to bring the sounds to people who love to experience them. Things are going very well, and I think this is a giant step in the right direction for Joyryde. I have a feeling that Joyryde will add a record label and recording studio within 2 years. This was one of the best decisions I have ever made, and I can’t wait to see what is around the corner in my career and life in general!!

Now If I was not single life would be great 🙁

until next time 🙂

Today I assembled the counter that we built for the record shop, and I waited around while the carpet installers put in 2/3 of the new charcoal carpeting. The store looks much cleaner and has much more potential with new carpeting versus the 4 layers of cracking and moldy linoleum. I will wait for the carpet to be finished tomorrow, and then do the rest of the 11 foot by 10 foot counter…I can’t wait, because that counter will make the store begin to look like a store! I also have to go buy all of the wall racks for the records tomorrow and finish up a site for one of my web design clients. Geesh; going from 18 months of vacation, to allotting 3 weeks to open an entire store is crazy!  I know it is the right thing to do though…Joyryde Records is the next step in my music career.

So tonight I got home and had an e-mail from my (ex?) girlfriend. I say ex, because I guess I am not really sure if we are together or not. For some reason, we seem to have a difficult time coming to an agreement as to whether we are going to stay together or not. After living with me for 2 years, she decided to venture back home with her parents, which I certainly do not consider a step forward. I obviously had no intention of going with her, so for the past 6 months we have been living 7 hours apart. At first I considered it to be something I could live with short term, because my love for her wouldn’t go away just because she did. Now I feel different and confused. Now I feel like she has more interest in her career and where she lives, than whether or not we have a meaningful relationship. I feel like I could stay with her, but that doing so would only be a typical long distance relationship; I’m not into that at this point. I know what makes me happy, and companionship is definitely one of the things that makes me happiest. I enjoy having her with me, all the time. I enjoy experiencing life with someone else, rather than alone, and over the telephone. I feel like I only get one shot at this LIFE thing, and thus should enjoy it to the fullest, not wasting time doing ANYTHING that I don’t feel 100%. I know that if it is meant to be, then it will be, but at the same time I know that the longer she stays away from me, the more I am going to want something to fill the void of companionship. I don’t think it is fair for me to have to wait indefinitely, for her to make up her mind. I already have, and my plan is to stay here until I am successful at completing my goals that I began at age 18.